Why?
It is that time of year again (as if anyone hasn’t noticed). As an avid crafter I have been working towards this time of year since boxing day of last year. Unfortunately, no matter what, there always seems to be a ton of stuff to get working on in December. Why is that? I think I just have an obsessive need to inflict knitting and crafting pain upon myself. It just never seems to be enough. If I have finished 2 projects before December I just add 2 more until I’ve added 1 (or 3) too many. The same thing happens if I finish 8 projects before December. I just never seem satisfied.
This year I am at school (getting my Bachelors of Education) so I vowed to avoid taking on too much and to focus on school instead. My friends and family are all very supportive and have suggested I try to ‘take it easy’ this year. I think this stems from last year. I was ‘only’ working last year and I went completely over the top insane trying to get everyone the PERFECT and most thoughtful possible gift. I was a maniac resulting in more than one complete and utter meltdown. My husband just shakes his head and asks the question for which I have no answer: “Why do you do this?”. That, my friends, is a very good question. Why do I do this? To myself, to those around me. Why?
In my search to find, make, or bake everyone the greatest gift of all time, I fall short on Christmas spirit. I went so far as to color coordinate the candy in the little bowls around the house on Christmas Eve. Not an odd things to do by itself but I didn’t just color coordinate, it had to be everyone’s favorite candy from a shop with rather specific hours etc. etc. etc.
That being said, it seems that I have learned nothing. This year is only slightly better. I have only a few knitting projects but a couple of them are rather large and intensive. I have even had the yarn for one of them since boxing day of last year and I just started them in late November. So I find myself asking yet again this year: Why do I do this to myself?
